Maybe that's why I'm writing about it. As you've read, I've done quite a few techniques and rituals to cleanse and start new but my mind isn't there yet. I know it'll get there, eventually. That's why I thought writing about it would help. I'm not one to really publicly whine or gain attention through sad situations and i don't want to be that girl that's always got a sob story to gain attention, that's just not me. But I really feel like I need to just write it out and move it on. Maybe this will help? Hopefully so.
I'm not going to get in to all the situations that have happened but I'll just say my dog Coco dying was the first of a few more deaths that happened within about a month after Coco leaving us. I was feeling a little better about adjusting to not having her around and then life hits you again. You think you're moving on and then all those wounds open back up, it's really hard. Some deaths are of people I knew well, some were of people I would saw were acquaintances and some were people I knew a long time ago. no matter who they are, when you get that realization of how precious & short life is, it's never easy to adjust and move on quickly. I tried to move on and focus on getting back to normal. But I guess I never really was in the moment in the first place so I don't think I really healed. I think my mind was forcing my heart to get better so I didn't stick in this sad place. But I don't think I even let myself be in a sad place enough to heal. So here I am two months later and I'm still adjusting to it all.
I've learned a lot. I went to my favorite tea spot to get more answers and solutions to help cope with things and I left with more than just tea. Leah told me that I need to feel these feelings that I'm having. I don't need to keep thinking about getting better, I need to think about feeling what's happening in my life. Take it in, learn from it, know you're probably never going to be the same way you were before and grow from there. I didn't leave with a tea blend or tincture that day, I left with a new way of thinking and coping with life. I'm still working on really just being in the moment. If I'm sad, I'm sad. I won't be sad forever and I'm not going to use it as an attention-seeking method, it's just ok to feel and be sad. When you're feeling something, really feel it. Get all those emotions taken care of and the you can really focus on you and what you need. I'm still working on this.
With that going on, I really let my lifestyle that I love slip. I have not really taken care of myself to the fullest. I did a juice cleanse and I'll cook healthy meals from time to time but overall the lifestyle that I have worked so hard to really tweak and make my own has fallen to the side. This affects my attitude and mood and life in every way I handle all life situations. Everything from my workout routines, to work, to my marriage, my attitude, and how I handle not so pleasant situations. Basically, I'm not handling things as good as I used to. I need to get back to it.
I have a herniated disk in my Lower back which has been hard too. I've been trying to focus on natural oils and tinctures and teas to help but I also have had to take time off of working out which has been so hard. So I'm not eating right, I'm not working out and I haven't really tapped in to my feelings with everything life has thrown at me. Not good y'all!
I'm here today to write out a public statement to focus on getting back on track. Yes, my heart will never be the way it was. But now my heart can be more aware and appreciative of life and the people that are in it. I can't force things to heal, I just need to let it be. I know what makes me happy and what works in my life to make things feel balanced.
A couple of things that keep my life balanced-
Working out-at least 30 minutes a day. Just sweating once a day makes me happy. It sets the tone for the day with me and really makes me happy.
Juicing-every morning it makes me so happy and feel so good. You drink this glass of amazing nutrients with fruits and veggies and I feel so wonderful afterwards and the rest of the day is just awesome!
Yoga-this has really has helped my back and it helps awaken my body in the morning and it gets my head in the right mindset for the rest of the day. Plus, doing yoga at night really helps calm me and I sleep like a baby.
Tea time-I love this local tea shop in Nashville, High Garden Tea. They offer custom teas, tinctures and all sorts herbs. Not only do they provide amazing natural living products but Leah (the owner) is like my therapist. She guides me through bumps in the road and never leads me astray. Leah blended me and Corey a little custom blend tea we named "Peace of Mind" and drinking that every night helps me chill out and relax to prepare for a relaxing sleep.
Healthy Eating-when I eat well, I feel well. Plain and simple. It just puts me in a good mood! My body is digesting and working the way it's supposed to, it's not working hard to digest processed, weird foods that aren't good for me, and i just feel at the top of my game when I eat well.
Essential Oils-this natural remedy has really helped me out. Especially with this herniated disk I've had. But oils also help with your overall well-being. I use them for headaches, aches, pains, my back but also mentally. If I'm feeling anxious or kind of in a funk, certain oils will completely turn the situation around.
Skin care regimen-when things in my life that are important to me slack, it shows in my skin. Our skin will show you everything that's going on in your body. I completely believe in Chinese face mapping. Your face will show you where the problems lie in your body. When everything else is balanced in my life, my skin looks wonderful and it's easy to take care of. But when it's bad and unbalanced, so is my skin.
My skin isn't looking so great right now but I've taken steps to get that back on track. One of my secrets is using my Clarisonic every night. I also use toner in the morning and at night. These two steps really make a difference in my skin.
***To go back to essential oils here's a little beauty tip***
Place a drop of frankincense in your moisturizer. I gave myself a facial doing a deep cleanse, microdermabrasion, mango enzyme peel & a moisturizing mask last night and topped it off with my homemade, all-natural moisturizer I made with a drop of frankincense and wow! My face looks drastically better today!!
Here's to you!
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